Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Forever Mrs. Ted Hightower

My husband of 11 years passed away on December 10. I don't know who I am. I have not looked at myself since then and I think I know why now. I will only see half of me. Part of me will be missing. The grief counselor asked me what the most difficult thing was and I said having the feeling that it was a dream. But as I pulled in the driveway later that day I realized the most difficult thing is coming home and knowing he will not be there or he won't be in his garage. I am 42 and he was just 44 years old. Our precious 8 year old son has helped me more than he will ever know. I just miss you so much Ted and I just want you home with me.