So tired

I just don't want to do this anymore. He was supposed to be here. For all of this. Michael has always hated school but it is even worse now. Everyday he begs me to homeschool him. Imagine that! A little 3rd grader hating school this much. He says his row blames him if they don't get a point for something. Today at lunch & recess he had 2 people tell him at different times he was in the wrong line. He said he almost started to cry. Later the teacher told the class to line up & he wanted to get his crayon & another kid told him to get in line. Then there's the lunch aide who tells him almost everyday he is not allowed to sit at the finishing table to finish his lunch because he had plenty of time. He said she tells him "No you're done. You're done Michael" when he starts to head to the finishing table. See I know he is a slow eater. His dad & I struggled with this forever. But I am so tired of seeing my little boy hate school this much. Can't this lady give him some slack? He has been crying ever since he got home. I try to comfort him but my grief comes surging out and I know that will not help him, all he wants is to be homeschooled. He doesn't want to go to group counseling which we will start soon. I know he probably just had a bad day and he is reminded everyday that his Daddy is no longer here. I just wish it wasn't so hard. I need him so much right now.He always knew what to tell Michael to help him feel better. My insides feel so messed up. I feel like I could just throw up. I want my husband home.