Cooking for two

It is so hard to actually cook anything but it makes it even harder now that it is just Michael & I. And I don't even actually cook. I only have recently been making things like mac & cheese, spagetti. Usually it is frozen pizza or soup. Which is fine with Michael. Tonight we are having baked potatos. Ted loved them and after he came home from the hospital it was the only thing that had 0 of all the things he should not have. So we ate them ALOT. If I didn't make them, when we sat down to eat he would say "Michael, do you know what would go really good with this? A baked potato!" After about the 4th time of saying this Michael started saying it. I miss him so much. I walk through the house and can almost see him in the rooms. I say "If Ted were home he would be doing...." I don't understand. I really don't. I will keep trusting God & try to remember He knows what is best. He knew Ted was the best for me at the time he came into my life. It doesn't take this horrendous pain away though. XOXO Ted!