Too Sad??????

How can I get too sad if I watch home movies & look at pictures of my deceased husband? I don't even understand what too sad means. I am already WAYYYYYYYYY past "too sad". I am too sad every time I go to the grocery store & see the foods I used to buy him. I am too sad when I go to a department store & see clothes I would have bought him. I am too sad when I drive on the same road we drove on together. Which by the way is every road. I am too sad when I am in our home. I am too sad when I am away from our home. I am too sad when I drive his vehicle. I am too sad when I look at his vehicle. Tell me please what I CAN DO that I WON'T be TOO SAD???? 11 weeks ago at exactly this time he was on the floor in our livingroom as paramedics were trying to revive him. He was already gone. I was screaming, crying, praying, begging God to please not take my husband away. Oh I miss you Ted & I am more than too sad without you.