Melted snow

The yard is almost completely empty of snow. The grass is visible & there are huge puddles everywhere. I walk around looking for something. Maybe something he dropped in the yard back in October or November. Just something. Went to the library yesterday. I started crying thinking of all the times I took Michael to story time & Ted was always there at home when we got back. He wasn't home when we got back yesterday. It makes me so sad. I just wish he was here physically. Everyday I wish this. I miss my husband.