4 weeks or 1 month

It has been 4 weeks today since he passed away. Why is it when I say 4 weeks it sounds like a short time. But if I say 1 month it sounds longer. They are both the same amount of time. Everyday is still a struggle but there is so many things to occupy my mind. Insurance, cars need to be fixed, mortgages, dogs need to be fed, fixed, flead, child needs to practice multiplication, book reports due, etc, etc, etc,. So I guess the to do lists help me to focus somewhat. Ted told me once that he had come over before & I wasn't home & I used to keep my trash cans on my enclosed porch. They didn't have lids & he noticed crumpled up paper on top so he looked at some of the papers. He thought maybe I had lost my mind because there were several lists that had things like: get groceries, go to bank, return movies, pick up cat food, etc. He was never a To Do List person. Me, the times I don't have a to do list, I feel unraveled & unorganized. I miss you Ted.