8 months

It didn't even occur to me that it was 8 months today until I was at the bank getting a certified check to pay the balance on the funeral and I wrote the date wrong on the withdraw slip. I wrote Aug. 10, 2010. I stopped & thought for a second "the 10th is significant" Then it hit me. 8 months exactly. Is this progress that I forgot for a moment? I have not had any real lows in about a week. I feel kind of numb sometimes. There is just so much to do and so many decisions to be made lately I don't have time to let myself cry. I worry I am not facing it though. I don't want to wake up next year and realize I have done no real grief work. I still think about him. I still miss him. I still cry everyday but its brief. 8 months ago it was cold outside. I was getting ready to come home from babysitting the grandkids. Him & Michael were waiting for me at home with Subway. The house was decorated for Christmas. Its hard to put myself back to that time I think because it is a whole different season. I don't know. I just know my life and my families life changed in a matter of seconds. Ted I miss you and love you so much.